8 Things I am Fearful Of
Happy Friday! As part of the 10 Day Challenge I shared my nine loves last week, and today I am sharing my eight fears.
Thank you to Kristin @ Sweat Courage for starting this challenge!
My Eight Fears:
1. Not having enough money to retire. I am terrified of never being able to retire, which is kind of funny since I enjoy and thrive in my work environment. If I had to do my job every day for the rest of my life it really wouldn’t be so bad. However, I don’t really WANT that to happen!
I contribute to my 401K, I have a financial advisor, I have a savings account, but I am still worried that it’s not going to be enough! I mean, how do you know what is enough? What if I turn 92 years old and I suddenly need to get a JOB after having been retired for 30 years?! Would I become homeless at 92?! That’s so scary!
2. Woofy crumbling away. Woofy is my stuffed dog that I’ve had since I was 2 years old. He is well loved and well worn… and I’m afraid one day he’s just going to turn into a pile of dust which would make me incredibly sad. I love that dog!
3. Getting shot or stabbed. For as long as I can remember I have had an irrational fear of being shot while walking down a hallway and being stabbed in my back while I sleep. I’ve always lived in a “good” neighborhood, I’ve never known anyone who was shot or stabbed, and yet I have these fears!
As a kid I would sometimes think about these scenarios in bed at night and I wouldn’t be able to sleep. I would just lay awake all night until the “safe” time of around 5am and then I’d get a couple hours of sleep before school. As an adult I am less scared of these scenarios … except for when Adam has to go on work trips. When I’m in the condo all alone at night those fears come creeping back into my mind. Ugh!
4. Rollercoasters and other scary rides. As I very young child I hated rollercoasters. As a teenager I loved them (or at least I tricked myself into thinking I loved them to seem cool). Now, as an adult, I am back to being scared of them!
The last rollercoaster I was on was The Hulk at Islands of Adventure about five years ago. It actually wasn’t that bad … but I don’t plan on riding another rollercoaster again … ever.
5. Getting blood drawn. Does this even need an explanation? It’s awful!!!!
6. War. Bombs. This is another one of those irrational fears from childhood that have stayed with me. As a kid I would always have this recurring dream that I was sitting at lunch with my friends and I look up and see a line of bombs flying through the air towards us. When 9/11 happened I didn’t sleep for days. I was 15 years old at the time and I literally just stayed up watching CNN all night long.
7. Vampire in the closet. Well, I guess I have a lot of irrational fears that started during childhood because I have always been afraid that there is a blood sucking vampire hiding in my closet just waiting for me to fall asleep. My dad probably should not have let me watch scary movies at a really young age.
As an adult I’m much less scared of this. Especially if it’s Vampire Eric in there. Just sayin!
8. Getting pregnant. Having kids is just not on the to-do list for Adam and I.
I admire my mom and all the awesome moms out there, but it’s not a job I feel comfortable applying for. Being a cat mom is more my style! : ).
Do you have any weird / irrational fears? Tell me I’m not alone! : )