Keep Your Fingers Crossed for Me!

Hello! Sorry I didn’t pop up a post earlier this morning, but I’ve sort of been stressing about a health related issue I haven’t blogged about….

A couple of weeks ago I found a lump on my breast and last Friday I finally went to the doctor to have it checked out. My doctor thought it could be Paget’s disease (don’t Google it, the pictures are gross), a form of breast cancer, so he referred me to a cancer specialist who I saw today.

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Needless to say I’ve been just a little bit stressed out / not sleeping well / etc. Last night I was just too exhausted and anxious to run or blog.

This morning I had an appointment with the specialist to have my lump biopsied. The doctor I saw today said he doesn’t think it’s Paget’s, but rather a type of skin cancer. 

This is really good news! (Probably, anyway.)

The doctor said we have to wait until the test results come back, but that the procedure for what he thinks it is will be really simple. I’ll basically just go into the hospital for a day to have the lump removed, have a bit of cosmetic surgery (due to the placement of the lump) and then I’ll go home and be back to normal!

I’m not totally out of the clear yet for anything really bad, but the doctor I saw today IS a cancer specialist and he said he is not worried.

“Kristina, I’m not worried so I don’t want you to worry” were the doctor’s exact words. 

I’m trying to follow that advice!

I do think it is a little weird to possibly have skin cancer on my breast as I’m not really the sunbathing topless type, but I have learned that not all skin cancer comes from sun exposure!

I didn’t ask the doctor about how this will impact running because I was thinking about a million other things and also feeling relief in knowing that it’s probably not breast cancer. I guess I might have to back out of the Fort Lauderdale half if I have to have surgery soon, but maybe not? I’ll know more after the test results come back.

Hey, maybe it will be nothing serious at all! There’s always a chance!

Please keep your fingers crossed for me! 

Also, please go to the doctor if you ever notice any weird lumps/bumps/moles/weird things. After I finally saw my primary doctor last Friday and he said the word “cancer” I really wished I had gone as soon as I noticed something was wrong!

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  1. October 28, 2014 / 12:41 pm

    Yikes. That is scary. Glad to hear at least that the doctor isn’t too worried. Fingers crossed for good news from the test results and quick recovery if you do need surgery

  2. October 28, 2014 / 1:00 pm

    Kristina, I am so sorry you have to deal with this! I bet the not knowing for sure thing is really, really stressful. But what your doctor said, that has to got to ease the “logical” part of your brain at least, right? I’ve got everything crossed for you right now, and please let us know how your test goes!

    • October 28, 2014 / 5:34 pm

      Thank you, Meg!

      I feel a lot better now that I’ve seen the specialist and he’s said not to worry. Of course he might tell EVERYONE that before their tests come back, but it was comforting to hear. My primary doctor had me feeling much less assured!

      I’ve also been doing a lot of Internet reading and it sounds like the survival rate for both breast and skin cancer is really high as long as it’s caught early. That also has me feeling better!

  3. October 28, 2014 / 1:25 pm

    OMG! Yikes! I’m so sorry you are going through this but I was SO relieved to read on and find out that your doctor is not worried and you should hopefully be back to normal soon. Keeping my fingers crossed that your tests will just confirm all of that 🙂

    I’ll be thinking of you and sending you all of my good, healthy vibes!!!!!

    • October 28, 2014 / 5:35 pm

      Thank you, Hanna! I really appreciate it!

      I’m nervous about potentially having surgery since I’ve never had one before, but it does seem like even if that needs to happen it won’t be too bad.

  4. October 28, 2014 / 1:31 pm

    Thinking about you and sending hugs! Man, what a month October has been for you, right?

    • October 28, 2014 / 5:36 pm

      Thank you, Amy! It sure has been quite a month!

      I am really hoping that November is much calmer 😉

  5. October 28, 2014 / 2:06 pm

    All my fingers are crossed for you Kristina! That’s a real scare. But like your doctor said, there’s no point in worrying – he’s probably dealt with millions of cases like this before so if he’s not worried there’s no reason for you to be.
    Sending hugs!

    • October 28, 2014 / 5:37 pm

      Thank you, Nessa! After learning more about skin cancer and knowing that we likely caught it very early, I am feeling better. It seems like skin cancer is very common and generally not something to be super worried about as long as it’s treated. I’m glad I finally plucked up the courage to go to the doctor and get it checked out!

  6. October 28, 2014 / 2:26 pm

    Fingers crossed…cancer is not a word any of us want to ever hear!! Just keep an open mind and heart, also know that if a specialist says don’t worry and he means it. Breathe easy, smile big and stay strong!!

    • October 28, 2014 / 5:40 pm

      Thank you, Staci! I am actually feeling really relieved that it’s probably not breast cancer which has me feeling more positive than I was yesterday!

      I appreciate the kind words!

  7. October 28, 2014 / 2:37 pm

    Oh my goodness! Fingers crossed – that sounds stressful, but I’m glad to hear that your doctor said not to worry too much. Definitely keep us posted. We’re here to listen and help!

    • October 28, 2014 / 5:41 pm

      Thank you, Jess. I appreciate it! After holding all my anxiety in for the last few days, it felt good to blog about it. I wondered if it would come across as too attention seeking, but it really did feel good to just get it all off my chest! That’s what the blog is here for, right?

  8. Randi
    October 28, 2014 / 2:55 pm

    Hi! I found you from HRG (creepy I know sorry, but I am a normal person, promise) anyways, I just popped over to see how your post marathon running is going and was so sad/shocked to see this. Many prayers for you and please keep us all posted. Hoping for the best!

    • October 28, 2014 / 5:42 pm

      Hi Randi, not creepy at all! Thank you for checking in on me post-marathon. I really appreciate your prayers and kind words!

  9. October 28, 2014 / 2:59 pm

    Wow, so scary. I’m glad that they don’t think it is anything too serious and I’m glad you got it checked out when you did! I will keep my fingers crossed for you!

    • October 28, 2014 / 5:43 pm

      Thank you, Lisa! My primary care doctor had me a bit freaked out, but this specialist has me feeling much calmer. He seemed really sincere when he said I shouldn’t worry! (However, I DO hope the test results come back quickly!)

  10. October 28, 2014 / 3:32 pm

    Kristina! Omg how scary. I’m so happy to hear that the doc isn’t worried, but I can’t imagine how stressful this must all be. Sending positive & healing thoughts your way!

    • October 28, 2014 / 5:44 pm

      Thank you, Bae! It is stressful for sure, but I feel less stressed than I did yesterday before I saw the specialist. His personality seems really well suited to his line of work because he was so calm and friendly. Just talking to him has me feeling better about the situation!

  11. October 28, 2014 / 3:36 pm

    My fingers are crossed and I’m thinking positive thoughts and sending you virtual hugs. I am so glad the doctor isn’t worried, that has to be good news. Please keep us updated (as long as you feel up to it) and let us know if there’s anything the blog world can do for you.

    • October 28, 2014 / 5:46 pm

      Thank you, Lizzy! I really appreciate it!

      I’m glad I have the blog because after keeping all my anxiety in for the last few days it sure did feel good to let it all out today in this post. It was like a big exhale for me. I will definitely let you know the (hopefully) good news as soon as I hear back.

  12. October 28, 2014 / 5:54 pm

    Yours, I would be worried too. Keep your head up, everything will work out. Have my fingers and toes crossed for you.

  13. October 28, 2014 / 6:43 pm

    Fingers crossed Kristina! Hoping for more good news from your doctor. I am glad he said not to worry.

    • October 29, 2014 / 12:19 am

      Thank you Jenny! I’m glad he said that too, it actually did make me feel better!

  14. October 28, 2014 / 7:50 pm

    That’s definitely nerve-wracking! Sending you good thoughts! Sounds like it’ll turn out to not be a super big deal, though, which is awesome even though I know that doesn’t really help when you’re going through it. 🙂

    • October 29, 2014 / 12:20 am

      Thank you, Margaret! I’m actually less concerned about the type of cancer since both seem to have really good recovery rates and more concerned about the surgery. I’ve never had surgery before! The idea of being put under sounds terrifying !

  15. October 28, 2014 / 8:34 pm

    I agree with your doc: if he says not to worry, don’t worry. I know it’s easier said then done. I’m keeping you in my thoughts.

  16. October 28, 2014 / 8:49 pm

    Oh gosh, I am so sorry you have had to deal with this! I will definitely keep my fingers crossed for you that this is nothing.

  17. October 28, 2014 / 8:57 pm

    Oh no!!! This is super scary, Kristina! Sending many many positive thoughts your way and crossing my fingers that it is nothing serious. Please let us know when you find out more. Good for you for being proactive about something that seemed weird/suspicious. That is not always the case!

    • October 29, 2014 / 12:23 am

      Thank you, Kristen! I really wish I had not even waited as long as I did. It was stupid to do since I knew a couple of weeks ago that something definitely wasn’t right. It’s funny how you always think you’ll do the right thing in certain situations and then they happen and you find all kinds of excuses and reasons for why you can behave differently!

  18. October 28, 2014 / 9:41 pm

    Glad that the doctor doesn’t think it’s something more serious! What a scary experience. So glad you are ok.

    • October 29, 2014 / 12:24 am

      Thank you, Brooke!

      If I didn’t have Adam’s birthday celebrations to distract me last weekend I would have gone crazy over-thinking and worrying about everything!

  19. October 28, 2014 / 10:57 pm

    Oh no, I am so sorry to hear! I literally just went to the dermatologist last week to have a mole checked. I didn’t know some skin cancers aren’t caused by sun exposure! I definitely need a more thorough check. I’m sure you’ll be just fine! Good luck with everything!

    • October 29, 2014 / 12:27 am

      Hi Kelli, thank you! That’s great to hear that you went to the dermatologist for a check. I really should have done that a couple of weeks ago! Most skin cancers are caused by sun exposure or related to it in some way. I think it’s really rare for it not to be caused by the sun, although I did come across a study that reports of non-sun related skin cancer is on the rise in the UK….although the reasoning was a bit murky.

  20. October 29, 2014 / 12:14 am

    Well,holy hell!!! For me to even post about a tiny little skin cancer issue when you are dealing with this is crazy!!!
    I will keep everything crossed for you!!!

    • October 29, 2014 / 12:18 am

      Kim! While I was driving to work after my appointment I was thinking about you. How is everything going? Did you get your spot removed yet? I’m going to email you!

  21. October 29, 2014 / 3:49 am

    This is so scary, I am so sorry you have to go through this! 🙁 Try to follow your doctor’s advice, even though it’s hard. Good thing you went to the doctor with it so quick! If my doctor said “cancer” to me I’d probably have a hear attack haha.. Just remember how strong you are, you’ll be okay 🙂 This has been quite a crazy year for you, wow.. I’m keeping all my fingers crossed for you, sending lots of hugs and all the best!

    • October 29, 2014 / 12:44 pm

      Thank you so much!

      I think the only reason I didn’t pass out when the doctor said cancer is because I had Google’d my symptoms before I went and had a feeling of what it might be. Of course you always hope the doctor will laugh and tell you to stop using Google because was wrong!

  22. October 29, 2014 / 5:41 am

    Kristina I am sending you a giant hug. I know the feeling of waiting and it’s the worst! I have crossed all fingers for you. Give Cecil a big hug. 🙂

    • October 29, 2014 / 12:45 pm

      Thank you Heather!

      Cecil has been really supportive. He’s only waking me up once a night for treats now which has really improved the number of hours I am able to sleep well 😉

    • October 29, 2014 / 12:46 pm

      Thank you, Amanda!

      What’s up with us having to go to the doctor this month? I don’t like it!

  23. October 29, 2014 / 8:24 am

    I used to always pass by Wang’s but it was so awkwardly large and in charge that for some reason I never went there? If that made any sense. Try Soda and Swine in North Park! The mac n cheese and meatballs are out of this world.

  24. October 29, 2014 / 9:36 am

    Oh wow I’m so sorry you are going through this! I’m sure it’s good to know your doctor isn’t worried, but it’s still hard to not worry! Sending positive healing vibes your way!!

    • October 29, 2014 / 12:47 pm

      Thank you Courtney!

      I feel lucky to have so many people sending good vibes my way. Maybe that is why I am feeling less and less anxious/nervous/scared about the whole thing!

  25. Juhee
    October 29, 2014 / 2:47 pm

    Oh my goodness!! I just read this and I’m so happy you went to the doctor! That is definitely something that I would just ignore and not really think about… I’m so glad that you paid attention to it!

    I wish you the best treatment and recovery 🙂

    • October 30, 2014 / 12:59 pm

      Thank you so much, Juhee!

      You would have paid attention if you saw what it looked like. It’s not a lump on the inside, it’s actually on the outside. Eek! I hope the rest results come back SOON!

  26. October 29, 2014 / 5:06 pm

    Sorry this is belated, have just read this post – so sorry to hear about your news Kristina. That does sound extremely worrying (the waiting to find out if its Paget’s disease or not, or just the not knowing), no wonder you were feeling stressed and not wanting to blog/run etc… Your doctor sounds very reassuring, and I think trying not to worry is great advice from him. When is your procedure? Wishing you a very speedy recovery and that everything goes smoothly. Thinking of you Kristina, sending love and well wishes all the way across the globe from China. xxx

    • October 30, 2014 / 1:01 pm

      The procedure would just be a simple operation to cut out the cancerous lump. I would have the surgery in the morning and hopefully be able to go home in the afternoon…. unless it’s Paget’s. Then the procedure becomes slightly more complicated and there would be the possibility I would have to have chemo depending on the stage. But I am hoping it doesn’t come to that!

  27. Lisa
    October 29, 2014 / 5:40 pm

    You are in my thoughts and prayers, Kristina. Last year I went through breast cancer surgery and radiation. I had great doctors and nurses who gave me great care every step of the way. At the biopsy, I was not getting “don’t worry” from the doctor so I would stick with the positive thoughts. No matter what, you are a strong person. You are a marathoner! Overcoming health issues is a mental game too. You already know how to play the mental game. I wish you all the best! You will win.

    • October 30, 2014 / 1:02 pm

      Hi Lisa, thank you very much for sharing your story with me. I know so many strong women who have won the breast cancer fight and it’s really reassuring!

  28. October 29, 2014 / 8:22 pm

    Definitely keeping my fingers crossed. Whatever it is, I’m sure you’ll see it through with all the strength that saw you through your marathon.

  29. October 29, 2014 / 9:25 pm

    Oh no 🙁 Scary. It would bother me, of course it’s hard not to worry. Hope this doesn’t take tooo long to find out what you are dealing with. I’ve had basil cells removed and I didn’t love it, but you just learned to adjust your lifestyle to stay healthy as much as possible. I am sending lots of good wishes and prayers to you that’s its nothing that would cause you all those things that come with the C word. Big hugs!! Sorry this took me so long.

    • October 30, 2014 / 1:05 pm

      Hi Karen, thanks so much for the well wishes. I really appreciate it! I really hope to get the test results back before the weekend. Maybe I’lll hear this afternoon or tomorrow!

      I’ve had pre-cancerous cells removed from my cervix so I’m a little familiar with the process, although with the cervix issue I didn’t have to have real surgery!