“I hopped off the treadmill, dripping sweat, smelling bad, heart beating out of my chest, feeling so incredibly self-satisfied.”
I always preach the importance of everyone feeling confident about his or her running abilities – whether you run a 15 min/mile or a 5 min/mile. I truly believe that as long as you’re pushing yourself, you are a great runner.
But sometimes I don’t feel like that applies to me.
Sometimes I feel inadequate as a runner.
I’ve been running for over a year but I still have days where 2 miles might as well be 10 miles.
I wonder, do any of you who have been running for years ever still get this feeling? Will it someday go away?
On Thursday of last week a thunderstorm kept me indoors on the treadmill. I started out the run with nagging thoughts of inadequacy– less than a mile in and I just wasn’t feeling it. How could my legs feel so tired and used up after less than a mile? Especially when I had a rest day the previous day!
I kept at it though and about 2 miles in I started to hit my stride. My legs warmed up and I was feeling okay, not great, but I knew I’d hit my goal of running 5K for the day even if it was somewhat of a struggle to the end.
Then this girl came in and got on the treadmill next to me.
I know you can’t judge a book by its cover but she looked like a runner (she also kicked that treadmill up and ran like an experienced, fast runner). I definitely do not look like a runner, but there I was next to her doing my thing.
And then something clicked and my feelings of inadequacy went out the window. I picked up the pace on my treadmill to more closely match her pace and I finished that last mile like a champion.
When I hit the 5K mark I realized I could have easily kept going, and I wanted to … a lot. But I follow my running coach’s program pretty religiously because it has yet to fail me.
I hopped off the treadmill, dripping sweat, smelling bad, heart beating out of my chest, feeling so incredibly self-satisfied.
No thoughts of running inadequacy followed me home.
Do you ever have feelings of self-doubt when running? What do you do to push past them?