Hey guys! Today I’m talking about something that I find endlessly uncomfortable to talk about: weight loss.
I can talk about my eating disorder until I’m blue in the face because I’ve had to talk about my unhealthy relationship with food so much over the years in therapy. What I have had less practice with is talking about developing a healthy relationship with food.
So far in 2018 I’ve been taking a lot of steps to do things that make me feel good about me. I’m back to running, I’m getting Invisalign braces, I’ve planned a fun vacation with Adam and I’ve lost 10lbs over the last month.
I didn’t tell anyone I was trying to lose weight because that’s honestly not really my goal. I just want to eat healthier, live healthier and manage my stress better, and losing 10lbs has been the result of that.
I have not counted calories, cut out any foods, made any rules or done anything that would make you think of dieting. I’m not following an eating plan, I’m not doing “Whole 30” or trying to go 100% plant based or anything like that.
I’m just trying to eat when I’m hungry and stop when I’m full.
Something that people do all the time without thinking, and all things that I’ve not been able to do almost my whole life. I honestly cannot remember a time when I wasn’t creating food rules or obsessing over my meals or making deals with myself. It started when I was a kid and stuck with me for my whole life, until now when I’ve finally somehow turned a corner.
Okay see what I mean? I can talk about my bad relationship with food so easily but talking about developing healthy habits is hard. I hope to get better at it and I hope to be able to share more updates like this in the future :).