Why I Was a Bad Client to My Dietitian
Grab a cup of coffee and let’s talk about some STUFF.
Last week I mentioned that in 2017 I changed therapists and I also saw a dietitian. Changing therapists was definitely the right move. My former therapist was great but it was time for a change to explore other issues outside of my eating disorder.
Similar to specialty doctors I suppose, therapists can specialize in certain things. My former therapist specialized in eating disorders, which made sense when my primary issue was my eating disorder. Turns out I have all kinds of issues though, haha. Not to joke about mental health, but sometimes you do have to just have a little laugh about it.
Anyway, I also started seeing a dietitian last year but I think I was a really awful client. I began seeing the dietitian around the same time I switched therapists which was probably a bad idea in itself. But also I had switched therapists because I was feeling a lot of shit that I wasn’t dealing with properly which meant I was constantly stressed, anxious and somewhat depressed.
Trying to work on your nutrition when you’re not emotionally well is tough, especially when historically you turn to food for comfort. On top of that I wasn’t working out as much as I previously had been because I had to stop running and I had zero motivation to do anything else. Partly because I missed running a lot, but also partly because I was dealing with depression. Only I didn’t really realize I was dealing with depression. I didn’t know what situational depression was at the time and I knew I wasn’t clinically depressed so I just felt lazy.
Anyway, I started working with a dietitian because I knew I felt shitty and I wanted to try and do something for myself that felt good. The dietitian I chose to work with was really nice. She was around my age, she liked running and was very knowledgable. Unfortunately I feel sure I was a really bad client for her.
We talked about practical tips for changing my habits and many days I just ignored them because I was stressed, somewhat depressed and very overwhelmed …and food makes me feel better. I just wasn’t in state of mind where I could think “well you can eat for comfort just not Cheetos, maybe celery instead.” Because it’s honestly just the action of eating that gives me comfort. When I’m stress eating I don’t even really taste the food so it doesn’t matter what it is. But that’s a different story.
So after a while I stopped working with the dietitian and I’m sure she was glad to see me go. I feel bad because as someone who works in a service-based industry working with crappy clients who don’t listen to you is the worst.
Maybe I’ll work with a dietitian again someday. When I’m not dealing with a lot of emotional stuff and can think clearly I have a decent idea of how to feed myself the right way. That being said dietitians have SO much knowledge about the technical aspects of eating (can you tell it technical? I’m going to call it technical). I love learning about fiber and how long-chain fatty acids affect cholesterol and stuff like that. I also like when dietitians break down a nutrition label.
I’m a nerd what can I say :).
Have you ever worked with a dietitian or thought about it?